so tonight a couple of my friends graduated and stuff, and as i watched the graduation ceremony, i recalled graduating myself and how i felt. i was excited about getting out of high school and going on to something new, college, with a greater degree of independence. but when i remember all this, there is this disconnect from the feelings in the memories and who i am today. it seems so far away, so long ago, and it's only been two years. i look back on it and i see this girl - i know her, she's me, but so much has changed that she's more like a distant memory. sometimes i'm not quite sure whether i've grown out of her, or betrayed myself. little bits of both, i suppose.