i'mbeing stupid so stupid so bstpuid.

i'm clinging ont o him and now he's reatng me like some sort ofa nnoying freind. someone he wantt obe nice to, but who i also graitong n his nerves. that's not what i want to be..

but i cant 'stand to lose him and i cna't stnd life without him and all i want ot od is be drunk if that's what lifehas to be even though i nknow htat's os bad, so bad ,so bad, i cna't poossibly drown my sorrowsi n alcholhol. but for some reaosn i' mtrying.